My last post was August 2014, this is truly awful.

That last post was about getting better, sadly this isn’t what happened at all. My getting better plan was foiled. Again!

Well things did improve for about two weeks, and then it all went down hill. My health deteriorated quite a bit and finally the doctors seem to know what is going on. My treatment plan isn’t in full swing yet, but now I know what I’m dealing with I’m determined to pick myself up, do my best and not get down with everything that’s going on.

I have been lucky enough to have a couple of lovely holidays taking me away from all the stresses of work and day to day life and this change of scenery has helped me mentally and physically.

Even just a night away or day out has left me feeling a bit more optimistic about things.

I absolutely need to do something about work though.  It is crazy, beyond crazy.  Every single day there is some drama which has been and is quite draining. Especially when my boss isn’t exactly being supportive and isn’t listening to me or anyone and hoping the bad stuff goes away.

DON’T MIND ME TRYING TO HELP YOU AND YOUR COMPANY…..

Not that I would get any praise for it and not that I even expect to (because I don’t do sales – the boss only praises them) but it’s just I do feel responsible for the company. My boss even says its my ‘baby’ as much as his. It has done well, but I feel it is at a sticking point at the minute and my ‘present thinking’ boss can’t (still) get his head around things that need to be done for the future…no matter what I try to tell him.

But that’s enough of a rant. These posts are meant to be about things I love and being positive so I will stick with that.  Although the odd rant here and there, getting stresses out can help lead me to be positive…right?

I haven’t been feeling my best of late and I have been neglecting most things, except work, there has been no let up there!
But now I’m a little less of a poorly girl and have found a little energy and spark to get my bum in to gear and sort things out a bit I’m feeling a tad better.

I’m a bit of a kleptomaniac/hoarder (I like stuff) and needed to get rid of stuff (that’s hard to write never mind do) or rather reorganise some areas of the house. The table that just has everything dumped on it. The corner that just has everything thrown in to it. The collection of things lost at the back of the cupboards. The insanely large collection of drinks soft and otherwise…I don’t even know what that’s about.

So I started with ‘that’ table and felt a bit better and have just carried on. We are now in the stage of it’s got to get worse before it gets better but at least it’s getting sorted…all be it rearranging tea bags at 2am but it is better and if it makes me feel better then I don’t care how mad it sounds. I’ve always been more of a night owl anyway.

I will get there and I will stay tidy. If I say it enough it might come true.
Fingers crossed!

I’m really going mad cooped up in the office today. So I gave myself a few mins to doodle how I was feeling before I get back on track in a moment.